I don't like Nihilism, in fact, I hate it.

The idea that life has no meaning or is infact meaningless bothers me deeply. What about everything in life itself? I understand some people are suicidal, feeling hopeless or simply depressed or have come to this short handed conclusion.

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But if everything in life has no meaning, then what does? Death? But death is the end of life.

And we aren't entirely sure (at least from a scientific point of view) what is after death. If we lived forever, life wouldn't seem to have much meaning and if there was no life at all that could be the case. What scares me more than hell is the possible infinite void below it. No thoughts, no embodiment, just pitch black nothingness.

But desiring this means there would be nothing, nothing at all. What about culture? what about actually good people in this world? what about soldier who disregarded the safety of their own lives just to fight for a nation and it's people?

My idea is that life and death depend on each other. Without life, death wouldn't be anything and vice versa.

I also can assume that life has no definitive meaning, which means we are all unsure what the meaning of life is. When I was younger, I used to ponder the purpose of life but now I think I have realized my own version of it. The meaning of life is life itself.

It's sounds almost paradoxical but hear me out. Its hard to justify our existence, we just popped out to breathe and experience this world. Meaning the existence of life is the meaning of life. To put it simply, when their is life the meaning is life and when there is suffering and death there is suffering and death.

I'm a firm believer of existentialism but when we are offered life, we are given a choice. Embrace what it has and what it can offer or disregard it. I chose to embrace it, despite the suffering, despite the pain. Some parts of existing is great, connecting with good people, making creations so others can enjoy, being able to post my yappings on Substack >•<!, helping others or improving yourself.

When life hurls the ball at me, I want to throw it right back, even if it lands into my face.

And man, I love a good challenge.